Still from To See If I'm Smiling
Still from To See If I'm Smiling

To See if I’m Smiling (Lir’ot Im Ani Mehayechet)

by Tamar Yarom
Six female former soldiers reveal the pshychological scars of serving in the Occupied Territories.
2007  ·  1h  ·  Israel
English subs
About the Film
Israel is the only country in the world where 18-year-old girls are drafted for compulsory military service. In this award-winning documentary, the frank testimonials of six female Israeli soldiers stationed in Gaza and the West Bank pack a powerful emotional punch. The young women revisit their tours of duty in the occupied territories with surprising honesty and strip bare stereotypes of gender differences in the military. The former soldiers share shocking moments of negligence, flippancy, immaturity and power-tripping as they describe atrocities they witnessed and participated in. The psychological transformation that these young women underwent as a result of military service is both upsetting and riveting. The culture of war transforms people: personalities change, moral codes are subverted, values are supplanted and masks are constructed to dull the pain of what they did and didn’t do in uniform. At a time when women in the military are increasingly on the frontlines, and the actions of soldiers all over the world are being questioned, this powerful film explores the ways that gender, ethics and moral responsibility intersect during war. [Description taken from Women Make Movies]
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Festivals and Awards
Human Rights Watch International Traveling Film Festival
FICCO, Festival International of Contemporary Cinema, Mexico City
One World Int’l Human Rights Doc Film Festival, Prague
Human Rights Watch International Film Festival
New Orleans Middle East Film Festival, Documentary Prize
Montpellier Festival, Best Documentary
Israeli Documentary Competition, Best Feature Documentary
Dokufest, Best Documentary
Haifa International Film Festival, Special Documentary Jury Prize
Sarasota Film Festival, First Prize
WATCH DOCS: Human Rights Int'l Film Festival, Special Jury Price
Hot Docs International Documentary Film Festival, Audience Award
International Documentary Film Festival, Amsterdam (IDFA), Silver Wolf Award
Eyal Or
Tamar Yarom
Shiri Bar-On
Daniel Gal
Itamar Mendes-Flor
Soundtrack Composer
Jonathan Bar-Giora
Tamar Yarom